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A Sissy’s Reverie [Chantilly Lace / Stormy Monday / Black] by Gabriel Ojeda-Sagué, for B More

Transcript:

#2174

a sissy’s reverie / melts easy / to pain and sugar / it butters the gap / between surprise and heaviness / it fails nobody / as it burns / it blurs

[Cream Puff - Dream Whip - Eraser Pink - Dusty Mauve - Sedona Clay - Cinnamon - Toasted Chesnut]

#2170

in this room / my mind’s eye / sees squeamish family / perform / mouth-covered / conga line / for them I bleach humiliation

[Soft White - Sunlit Coral - Teacup Rose - Coral Spice - Autumn Cover - Tropical Orange - Fireball Orange]

#2168

I could eat almost anything / I could Candyland the land / and oil the soul / of Plumpy’s tree / as it turns in autumn / to a confectioner’s fire / I could even eat the leaves dropping

[Sun Kissed Peach - Peach Nectar - Summer Melon - Peachland - Orange Blossom - Pumpkin Cream - Fall Harvest

#2165

months like mother / used to make / crumble easily / into others / we could all use a friend / in this state / of claylessness

[Butter Pecan - Durango Dust - Natural Sand - Dark Beige - Golden Retriever - Golden Meadow - Camel]

#2160

I teethe / on your wrists / the story of a village / seated on stagnant / water, where / milk teeth / dissolve

[Sugar Cookie - Kansas Grain - Oklahoma Wheat - Roasted Sesame Seed - Maple Sugar - Turmeric - Caramel Corn]

#2157

he thinks / like Sophia Loren / of his daughter and war / and, for a moment, coins / a heap of coins / all things can be made / smaller, minted

[Ivory Tower - Tudor Cream - Crisp Straw - Beeswax - Butterscotch - Golden Harvest - Golden Dunes] 

#2155

running / from or through / wildfire / one idea / of how to draw / obsession / fermata

[Cotton Tail - Cream Yellow - Suntan Yellow - Semolina - Yellow Marigold - Gold Mine - Desert Sunset]

#2154

A splash of oil / to Christina’s World / a pupil in the field / wishes strewn / “about” / I teach the world / only to rust

[Vanilla Ice Cream - Filtered Sunlight - Straw - York Harbor Yellow - Buttercup - Spicy Mustard - Yellow Oxide]

#2152

the murder / committed / at the art museum / is not a part / of the art / sing me oh muse / the wall text

[Mayonnaise - Mannequin Cream - Golden Straw - Golden Tan - Autumn Gold - Aztec Yellow - Medieval Gold]

#2150

even after taking in / the sweat / and hallucination / and mathematics / of the passiflora / more than anywhere else / the sissy must be at home

[Easter Lily - Pale Celery - Hampton Green - Spring Dust - Savannah Green - Lichen Green - Willow Green]

#2149

what kind of war / can be won / by emperor tamarins / how subtle / but not absent / the sound / of the martini’s olive

[White Chocolate - White Marigold - Mellowed Ivory - Timothy Straw - Fresh Olive - G.I. Green - Newt Green]

#2146

as baptism turns sour / and corners mold / the rain-haired priestess / sits on her hands / she sees a little miracle: / a pale jester / carved into the wall

[Bavarian Cream - Cream Silk - Rainforest Dew - Pale Avocado - Split Pea - Forest Moss - Dark Celery]

#2145

maternal ferns / the essence of / the mind’s limesicle / Freud says / for every sissy / a limesicle / mom’s shoes

[Cotton Balls - Minced Onion - Limesicle - Fernwood Green - Brookside Moss - Terrapin Green - Avocado]

#2143

you are not / I notice / my “old courage-teacher" / take me, compadre / to the swamp where / we become / simply white

[Simply White - Moonlight White - Old Prairie - Camouflage - Olive Branch - Alligator Green - Sage] 

#2139

invoking the fox / whose magnet eyes / recover worldfulness / so little difference / that makes / to the advent / of Stephen

[White Ice - Green Tint - Silver Martin - Heather Gray - Sharkskin - Dakota Woods Green - River Rock]

#2138

asking if / in Funny Games / they’re gay / or just brothers / seems beside / the point / notify heaven

[Gray Lake - Gray Cashmere - Misted Green - Carolina Gull - Mohegan Sage - Green Grove - Southern Vine]

#2135

The Xibalba / of Nantucket / oh what I’d do / for my daughter / remember us / phantasmagoric / two-lane

[Patriotic White - Summer Shower - Soft Chinchilla - Province Blue - Nocturnal Gray - Stone Cutter - Blacktop]

#2133

the foundry / where night / makes an ingot / of day / the Simeon / of birdsong / cuts cuts

[Tundra - Sidewalk Gray - Pigeon Gray - Charcoal Linen - Day’s End - Black Jack - Onyx]

#2131

as if from / countdown / distant eyes / commission / short breaths / tangled / shadows

[Gray Sky - Silver Gray - Nimbus Gray - Smokestack Gray - Lead Gray - Midnight - Black Satin]

#2130

permission / to fear in film / from dad / and Lucy / Tony Montana’s / nose braiding / an ectoplasm

[Seattle Gray - Iced Slate - New Hope Gray - Black Pepper - Almost Black - Deep Caviar - Black Bean Soup]

#2129

worth staying / home, where / the lake is / only a sink / a cereal bowl / a washing machine / a dialogue bubble

[Silver Cloud - Mt. Rainier Gray - Winter Lake - Normandy - Blue Note - Soot - Midnight Dream]

#2123

one sissy is a beach / or a cheerleader for gulls / in such open / illusions / he is reminded / of pulling apart / sargassum

[Ice Mist - Sea Foam - Ocean Air - Gossamer Blue - Sea Star - Caribbean Teal - Mediterranean Teal]

#2122

I sigh seven / sighs into / Shiva’s snap / unphotographability / of diamond dust / tropical nostalgia / for impossible objects

[Snow White - Palest Pistachio - Iceberg - Smoke - Cloudy Sky - Steep Cliff Gray - Dark Pewter] 

#2121

we hold water / in the vase / illusion made / by our noses / we wait / for its freeze / our aphasia

[Chantilly Lace - White Diamond - Iced Cube Silver - Silver Half Dollar - Pewter - Steel Wool - Gray]

#2117

her devoted fans who / as she sings / tilt from sleep / to ecstasy / imagine her / subdivided / bioluminescent

[Dreamy Cloud - Winter Gray - Spring Violet - Tropical Dusk - Shadow - Galaxy - Carbon Copy]

#2113

counting days / and children / the need to know / new things / Chopin’s prelude / for the madam / of Salò

[Antique Pearl - Porcelain - Mauve Desert - Cinnamon Slate - Bison Brown - Pine Cone Brown - Chocolate Sundae]

#2110

he rejects boys / who reject Rita / who sculpt / the guitar’s open / chord, who cast / eyes away from / mom, movie

[Vintage Taupe - Pampas Grass - Gobi Desert - Seaside Sand - Saddle Soap - Brown Tar - Taupe]

#2105

limbs removed / from dolls / gateway arch / for a kingdom / of safrole / desire / ipecac

[Savory Cream - Acapulco Sand - Sand Pebble - Dusty Ranch Brown - Rabbit Brown - Root Beer Candy - Forest Brown] 

#2102

which yearns / for the southwest / in montage / an early thing / crossdressed / for war / boiling dirt

[First Light - Honey Hut - Rose Bisque -Brown Teepee - Pueblo Brown - Pumpernickel -Earth Brown]

#2091

how easy / how breathlessly / the sissy turns / himself / into / the / mesa

[April Pink - Heather Pink - Rosy Tan - Red River Clay - Deep Poinsettia - Rustic Brick - Tea]

#2089

nausea a teacher / two fingers / pulling the philtrum / oh ecstatic / açaí bowl / become my / ailing mentor

[Frosted Petal - Peach Kiss - Salmon Berry - Tomato Cream Sauce - Pink Mix - Rosy Peach - Iron Ore Red] 

#2087

in pontoon summer / gory balayage / of juice and cream / down his neck / my body / crooked in / the Rubbermaid cooler

[Elephant Pink - Ribbon Pink - Strawberry Sorbet - Autumn Red - Italiano Rose - Watermelon Red - Neon Red]

#2086

she takes nostalgia / as a codeword / she becomes / her mother’s / hospital / the thoughts and well-wishes / of Bill Haley and His Comets

[50’s Pink - Sweet Taffy - Blushing Bride - Deep Carnation - Rosy Blush - Rose Parade - Exotic Red]

#2084

the flute in / morning mood / the prismatic / ocean oil spill / you are as beautiful / as the mountain king / is edible

[Gentle Blush - Early Sunrise - Rosy Glow - Precious Pink - Rouge - Maple Leaf Red - Brick Red] 

#2083

hanging / from his mother / Roland Barthes / long-legged / imagining / future glasses / of wine

[Baby Dreams - Sweet Naivete - Pink Pansy - Begonia - Old Claret - Cranberry Cocktail - Raisin Torte] 

#2081

in cloverfulness / the sunspot / childhood / the changing / skin of / spanked tush / an inner lantern

[Flush Pink - Pink Lace - Pink Ruffle - Pink Blossom - Vibrant Blush - Sultan’s Place - Burnt Peanut Red]

#2079

playing Bertolucci / in the / rhododendron / he realizes / he knows / the beginning / of everything

[Candy Stripe - Pink Cherub - Rhododendron - Springtime Bloom - Peony - Blushing Red - Candy Cane Red]

#2078

angel of sawdust / let me into / the nursery / for the family / has barred my way / I inscribe / the mobile

[Pink Peony - Newborn Pink - Pink Begonia - Paradise Pink - Royal Fuchsia - Raspberry Glaze - Roseate]

#2073

what is the tempo / of night / the brushstroke’s / telepathic confessional / one holy / excessive / silence

[Purple Cream - Pale Iris - Purple Easter Egg - Purple Hyacinth - Passion Plum - Autumn Purple - Dark Purple]

#2072

he lisps through / Sappho / he bites through / a mangosteen / he puts his pleasure / into an urn / of nothing

[Raspberry Ice - Beach Plum - Lavender Lipstick - Wild Orchid - Purple Lotus - Black Raspberry - Dark Basalt]

#2071

rotating in / homodomicile / and erotomystique / she empathizes / with the lever / that moves / the world

[Misty Lilac - Lily Lavender - Amethyst Cream - Crocus Petal Purple - Mystical Grape - Gentle Violet - Exotic Purple]

#2068

in certain silences / the child unknows / his father, the ocean ox / he pours himself / into sand, the night / above the beach / is slouched velour

[White Heaven - Purple Lace - Victorian Trim - California Lilac - Scandinavian Blue - Grape Gum - Majestic Violet]

#2067

seagull girl / rains resentment / over hometown / she empathizes / with her past self / three seconds ago / when she was just a child

[White Satin - Windmill Wings - Summer Blue - Blue Lapis - Twilight Blue - Starry Night Blue - Midnight Navy]

#2065

grandfatherishliness / or sugary guava paste / survives the travel / the horizon of / balsero’s painting / his sympathy - his dollar / his feathered progeny

[Bashful Blue - Caribbean Coast - Blue Wave - Utah Sky - Brilliant Blue - Dark Royal Blue - Admiral Blue] 

#2063

sailing boys / and the gems in their hands / are tethered / by threads, threats / thigh to thigh / they make with looks / our obligations

[Cumulus Cotton - Sapphireberry - Blue Marguerite - Sailor’s Sea Blue - Blueberry - Downpour Blue - Old Navy]

#2060

the wires, the worms / in Joni’s skin / 40 fates I / could have had / the dervish not / whirling but spinning / an empty space to fill in

[Tear Drop - Turquoise Haze - Cayman Blue - Toronto Blue - Seaport Blue - California Blue - Symphony Blue] 

#2055

the corsair for whom / all I cannot change / he says ever / a missing submarine / a drowned inner child / his chest hair / ever after

[Innocence - Serenity - Fairy Tale Blue - Bahamian Sea Blue - Caribbean Blue Water - Pacific Ocean Blue - Teal] 

#2051

my fortuneteller! / my flying psyche! / calm demon! / so much of the salty expanse / is logged! / in my! / heart!

[Crystal Blue - Bird’s Egg - Tranquil Blue - Majestic Blue - Casco Bay - Pine Green - Yukon Green]

#2049

no place on the spectrum / between a slip dress and letting slip / for these ascetic / and arthritic fingers / whispering “demiurge’ / ah, at that / I lick my lips

[Icing on the Cake - Forget Me Not - Spectra Blue - Peacock Blue - Teal Ocean - Oasis Blue - Pacific Sea Teal] 

#2048

I make a little hut / inside a Beach Boys song / where I shake sand / into cotton candy / an arena in the chorus / sees Russell Crowe and Robinson Crusoe / dueling with plantains

[Barely Teal - Jamaican Aqua - Tropicana Cabana - Poolside Blue - Aruba Blue - Juniper - Sherwood Forest]

#2046

I pick up the fog / dropped by a woman / othersided / I breathe it in / for a new game / I deal out / a deck of walls

[Light Mint - Misty Teal - Scuba Green - Green Sponge - Cayman Lagoon - Garden Green - Calypso Green] 

#2042

Lezama Lima - “the Cuban / in a glass sarcophagus / surrounded with little sacks / of sugary sand / is likewise in a kind / of ecstasy, pulled by / four magnets”

[Minty Green - Florida Aqua - Caribe Green - Miami Green - Hummingbird Green - Reef Green - True Green] 

#2039

winged serpent / baptized in toothpaste / divides the moon in halves / plates them as peach slices / it wishes on a spinal column / its feckless imitator / for an eclipse

[Refreshing Teal - Seafoam Green - Mermaid Green - Teal Blast - Cabana Green - Emerald Isle - Deep Green]

#2034

one’s limey cocktail / sprouts a forest / when left to its own devices / standing curious / it looks out / and over / in trust of termites

[Daiquiri Ice - Light Pistachio - Acadia Green - Cedar Green - Grassy Fields - Vine Green - Clover Green]

#2031

oh neonic limesicle goddess / hear this rhubarb / growing in darkness / which fantasizes / about tap dancing / oh spotlight condensed / into a paper bag

[Lime Froth - Neon Celery - Key Lime - Spring Meadow Green - Sweet Pea - Paradise Green - Neon Lime] 

#2026

give me time alone / to become suitable / to the camcorder / recording of my first / birthday, in which / we took turns / describing snow

[Eggshell - Summer Lime - Fresh Cut Grass - Apple Green - Snow Cone Green - Margarita - Lime Green] 

#2025

don’t make me a star! / I’m no Simone Simon / no dancing chops / in the limelight / I shrivel / I turn metal, I get intricate / I become a quiet little tchotchke

[Barely Yellow - Lemon Glow - Lemon Freeze - Limelight - New Lime - Yew Green - Bright Lime]

#2023

catacartoonistrophically / we are joyous / growing pairs / of legs, gaze / into my heart / see sundogs / sunburns, sungthroughs

[Crème Fraiche - Butter - Lemon Meringue - Sunburst - Sun Porch - Baby Chick - Yolk] 

#2022

performing let’s stay / togehter for / the banana guard / we unify in hums / ascending from the root chakra / to above the radical breast / d’école, l’étage

[Crème Brulee - Light Yellow - Sundance - Banana Yellow - Bright Yellow - Sun Kissed Yellow - Yellow] 

#2018

scattered jewels / over pork nachos / a corps de ballet / a captive audience / with the wave of a hand / I could change / tomorrow’s pollen count

[Milkyway - Lighthouse - Morning Sunshine - Nacho Cheese - Citrus Blast - Mandarin Orange - Orange Sky]

#2014

the brief silk / between the sissy / and his spring / the creation of adam / the sissy is jealous / that paintings lie / untouched

[Ecru - Whispering Peach - Springtime Peach - Peachy Keen - Tangy Orange - Rumba Orange - Festive Orange] 

#2012

letters / typed / onto / petals / magnified / by / dew

[Soft Pink - Creamy Peach - Perky Peach - Summer Sun Pink - Tangerine Dream - Flame - Tawny Day Lily] 

#2010

youtubing vocal ranges / and urban legends / while others / fight in the garage / I sense the outline / of something I will later / call desire

[Frosty Pink - Rose Petal - Dawn Pink - Coral Gables - Starburst Orange - Warm Comfort - Tomato Red]

#2008

in half a fantasy / this / riddles the rose / embeds a planet / in the flower’s center / praises the invention / for this is how the goddess was invented

[Touch of Pink - Little Piggy - Delicate Rose - Hydrangea Flowers - Raspberry Blush - Claret Rose - Ravishing Red]

#2004

the reverie is not a dream / it is how the baby / thinks through its mother / for words / or it is a piano piece / or an unincorporated community / in Tennessee

[Romantic Pink - Pink Parfait - Baby Girl - Pink Starburst - Raspberry Pudding - Chili Pepper - Deep Rose]

#2003

fiasco / this everweaver’s life / insectoid feminina / be true to me / I am my own / harbinger / this is my announcement

[Pleasing Pink - Exotic Pink - Coral Pink - True Pink - Berry Wine - Strawberry Red - Million Dollar Red]

#2002

stars are rooms / where sissies blush / at knowing glances / they ask themselves / from here, how / can the / sun rise?

[Pink Cadillac - Sweet 16 Pink - Tickled Pink - Flamingo’s Dream - Rose Quartz - Bull’s Eye Red - Vermilion]

#2001

uncalled / a fig / a fog / a flag / a fugue / rich man’s / frug

[Marshmallow Bunny - Country Pink - Full Bloom - Pink Popsicle - Spring Tulips - Bonfire - Ruby Red]

#2000

in what version / of living are we / worth living / the strawberry candy / at grandma’s / the shape of / the sissy’s soul

[Voile Pink - Light Chiffon Pink - Blush Tone - Strawberry Shortcake - Red Tulip - Tricycle Red - Red]